Hey, lately my life has been pretty hectic. I slept very late and I woke up very early. Thus, it caused some zits on my face. But, today, I won't discussed about this topic. Hey, do you know Ariana Grande? do you know Selena Gomez? Honestly, I don't really know about these human, personally. Not even a fan on any of them. But I do listen to Grande's musics. She can belt and one of the reason why I like some singers and the songs, is because of their skills of belting. I also knew some facts about Selena Gomez, she is cute, she has millions of followers on Instagram and she has been in a relationship with Justin Bieber (she broke up with Bieber). But, I do not give a damn on any. I also do not know if this Gomez can belt, I don't really listened to her music, but one thing I probably know ; I know, that one of her songs is I am so sick of the same old love? I am not sure either, if I had brought the correct title. But, I don't like that song very much. Grande can belt, I like most of her songs. So, probably I am one of her fan? No, I like her musics. <<<< These are the only facts to the max that I knew about them. Okay, this is just an introduction.

For those who knew me, you should know how realist I am, when it comes to.. to.. hmm... when it comes to anything, really, hmm.. but.. I do think I am in between a realist and a fantasist. Me, being a realist, I like to lay down the hard facts. I like lists of pros and cons, and I also like to make decisions based on logic. But, me being a fantasist, it's not rare for me to act upon feelings, thus I never wonder why. Okay, after my 23rd birthday, I just realize how impulsive I am. When I want something, I do not give a forethought, careful consideration on the matter that I really wanted. Closest example, I always buy a last minutes tickets to anywhere, I suddenly wanted to throw a suprise party for my friend  and willingly travel across the clouds, and and when everything has been settled, after having an enjoyable moments, then only I discovered how many dollars that burned inside my bank accounts and that makes me felt regret. Before I went to Japan trip, I also booked a flight to Japan before as a result of my impulsiveness, but I did not fly, because, just because, and I finally flew to Japan on my second tickets. Oh, typing this making me realized how spoiled I was. Sorry mommy, sorry daddy.

Due to this impulsive disposition, I booked a ticket on a random night after a clinical attachment, because I felt stress during the clinical time, and I had a thought of having a graduation trip sounds a good idea. I am not sure, where I wanna go, since I covered most of the famous countries in the Asia and other continents, so I had a thought of flying to europe ALONE. Sounds exciting right. Yes, I was excited. I told my friend, who is confirmedly willing to spend some dollars on travelling, and she also had this impulsive traits and without me knowing, she booked the ticket straight away upon knowing that I had purchased my tickets. It was just a one way ticket from KLIA to Heathrow Airport. Was thinking of doing multicity for our flight, since I did not plan anything, thus, I don't know when will I return home. After made some planning and itinerary, we bought a return ticket, thus total lost was almost 6k for the flight ticket. (Fact: one way tix from heathrow to KLIA are a bit expensive, compared to return ticket from Heathrow to KLIA, because of the currency. From Heathtrow to KLIA was GBP 494, but when it is converted to MYR2805++, but, if you buy a return ticket, it was only RM2712. So, never ever ever ever do this, or else you will burned your dollars some more)

Months after, only I told mommy about this. AND AT THE SAME TIME, THERE WAS A NEWS ABOUT MANCHESTER ATTACK AFTER THE ARIANA GRANDE'S CONCERT.  Because they are English, and I am going to an English country, so mom was OVERREACTED, and told me NOT TO GO. I was panicked. AND MY FRIEND ALSO TOLD ME THAT HER MOM WON'T ALLOW HER FLYING BECAUSE OF THIS GRANDE'S ISSUE. OMAIGOD. WHAT IS THIS.

But, we were trying to be positive and half stupid (or really stupid), we continue with our planning and booked everything, booked a train from london to paris, accomodations, attraction places doing . WE BOOKED EVERYTHING, WE PAID EVERYTHING, LIKE LITERALLY EVERYTHING. we burned our pounds. Because we were positive that our moms will allow us. That Grande's issue will pass by. Thought our minds. Few weeks ago, my friend told me, that her mom WILL NEVER LET HER GO. But, we are still positive.

This week, I asked my mom where did she folded some other long johns, because I only had 2 inside my room and my mom asked me:

"Why are you looking for long john? Where are you going? London? did not I tell you, you can't go?"

Okay, I kept silent. I am a bit scared of mommy compared to daddy. I seriously seriously seriously praying praying mom will change her mind. Because if not, I will burn 11k just like that. Phew.

Daddy, I know you would read this, tonight or maybe tomorrow or the day after tomorrow and next weeks or whatever days you wanted to read as long as before October then please la pujuk mommy, because asal kabilahian ku pehek lu daddy. so please please please daddy. Daddy bha okay. Thank you my beautiful, pretty and handsome and perfect daddy ever.



Now I think, I like Selena, altho I know nothing about her.