Wednesday, 30 August 2017

Soul sister.

Aside from family, best friends, boy friends, girl friends, ex-boy friends, ex girlfriends (well, I do sound bisexual). God has sent me a person, whom I love so much and I willingly to lend my RM5K for her but I changed my mind because I am broke as well.  
( #ifyourememberthatconversation).

When I am home, I tend to forget something, especially the facts that I studied dietetics because I did not practice even a tiny of it, I think I also forgot hmm what you called the table that contains food groups? Food Exchange list? the one that you calculate the calories based on it.. arghhh.  you die Masfara. That was one of the example I forgot things. 

But this little baby always texted me saying she misses me and all. I missed her so much, but I forgot to tell her that I missed her (and suddenly she buzzed me on WhatsAap). 

Whatsapped me some random news and gossips such as: 


NOTIFY ME ON THE GIRLY THINGS SHE DID WITH OTHER GIRLFRIEND




When she bought stuff together with other girlfriends, she notified me on everything she did, be it a sweeter or even a bitter one. I hate the fact that she bought sweatshirt couple, paired with Era.. Arghhh.. and I like sweatshirt too.. but she ...hmmmm . with someone else. (Era, I should take down a post about you on my blog, you coveted my roommate (why do I hurt whenever I said "roommate", ugh, probably because Nurin and Mizah's voice came after, argh and I hate calling her roommate.. argh, whatever). She WAS my roommate. 



TELLING ME HOW MUCH SHE LOVES ME MORE THAN I DO


Even this human also got no reply from me.. but, to be honest, I somehow did not open the instadm or sometimes I forgot to reply and bla bla bla.

WHEN WE HAD OUR LATE NIGHT CONVERSATION 
(READ: VIRTUAL PILLOW TALK)


"I asked you bc even if I were with them, i'll still think abt you" 
(I am gonna send this blogpost link to Mizah and Nurin, I am her number 1 lalalala)

and... 



A GOOD MORNING WISHES







THE ONE THAT YOU CALLED SISTER


Dearest kids, 

This is another letter to all of you, 
If you never heard about mommy's friend or I did not tell you when you now can understand things, you should ask me. Argh, I don't know what kind of mom would I be, but kids, one thing for sure, I will force you to read my blog like how much I force this best friend of mine. 

When I was in Year 1, I had some communications barrier with all the people that I met, but this friend awesomely understand me. I had to use English to avoid too much of questions from them, but this friend was surely a mind reader.  On our very first night together back in our room in KTSN.. I told her this.. 

"Mira, sorry ye, aku pakai macam ni, kau tak kisah kan?"

"Oh, takpe, I tak kisah, I ada je kawan pakai macam ni" 

I, basically ask for a permission from her, because she will be the one whom I shared my days and nights with, so, I should asked her comfy as well. This is manner, okay. Luckily, she was okay, and there was one night, when I wore a tshirt to sleep, and she was surprised, looking at my top which was, not my usual "attire". It was funny watching at her reaction.

We had our big fight during year 1, due to the difference in "idealism". I can't help myself from bursting, and she burst too. Thought, it was the end of the friendship.  Although I really wanted to ask for an apology, I did not. I was an ego maniac back then. I did not ask for an apology and was stubborn enough to accept apology and  she asked me: 
WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME, SO THAT YOU CAN FORGIVE ME?? 
I answered: 
YOU HAVE TO HUG ME!

We hugged tightly and I gave her a yelled of cry. You don't understand kids. That was embarassing, when you were fighting, yelling, and you hugged each other and what's next? AWKWARD (Don't be like mommy okay, be like your daddy, ugh. I don't know who is going to be your daddy hahaha whatever kids). As far as I remember, that was the only fight we had, and I never had any dissatisfaction towards her anymore, I don't know about her (because your mommy is prettier than her, so she might have some jealousy haha). Fast forward to year 4, we had a little squabble. But, duh, it lasts for only a second. 

Kids, this girl is the one that I treasured the most (sorry other girlfrens, I sound bias, but.. hmm.. she was my roommate). I seriously like her so much. I like her to the extend that I wanted to distant myself in our real life, because I was afraid, I might hurt her with my words or action, and I was afraid she might hurt me too, because kids, your mommy had a delicate heart. I did not want to spoil this friendship. 

There was one night, something happened, it was something hard and it hurt me so much, but I did not cry, well because your mommy was a strong girl (Please be like mommy), watching Youtube, concealed the feelings and she rang me, wanted me to console her, because something happened to her too, she haven't finished talking, but I burst my tears and cried. She was shocked and turned out she comforted me. 

There were so many happy things happen back then, but these scenes caught my attentions and highlighted my 4 years life there. 

"Every time I am with you, I turn out to be your elder sister, instead you to be my elder sister"

Was the words she uttered, so kids, introducing to you, 
this is your Mama Eya (Mamaya)

Okay kids, bye bye. 
*Kiss you on your cheeks and forehead*


We were on an accident,
You were lying on the road, 
I was crying looking at you in pain,
I was standing next to you, 
praying for your conscious. 
I was in pain too, 
And I fainted. 

My eyes wide opened, 
I saw you standing watching me, 
You were in a great condition,
I was happy.

I knew you were tired, 
So I told you to go home first, 
You walked away, 
I wanted to run after you, 
Before I realised, I was the one who lost all my limbs. 
My heart was crying, it was pain, 
But, I love you. 
So, it's okay
Cos, I'm going to be alright.


I love you so much Mands, may Allah bless our friendship forever. 


XOXO.





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